LIFE UPDATE: INCONSISTENCY>STRUGGLING WITH PRAYING>NYSC>ANNIVERSARY>ROMS 8:38-39

 

Dinma Okocha

Dear Reader,

I want to apologize for being away. You know, that’s the thing about inconsistency, it finds a way to pull down what you’ve built and make you struggle to get back on your feet. My business is currently struggling because my rate of inconsistency is high. Good news is, I realized I’ve been lagging and you know what that means? Progress (a step in the right direction). 

I remember dedicating a day to getting this blog ready and dedicating another day to writing the first blog post (feels like yesterday) Although I’ve been inconsistent with posting but we’re ONE YEAR already🎊🎊 God is good!

I just recently realized that I’m not all that and there’s so much to learn and unlearn. I still run away from prayers and God at every heavy burden I feel, I still try perform or impress him whenever I’ve gone away from him for a bit (I try to go to Him with a speech) but I really need to just drop all of these things I THINK are the appropriate things to say to Him but In actual sense, we’re just supposed to go the way we are. God help us!!!

By the way, your Babygirl is serving (NYSC) already🎊I don’t know how I feel about it (lol) because it’s not going as I expected it to. It’s feeling really really hard but we’re pushing. My orientation camp was at Adamawa, Yola. It took so much time for me to adjust or to adapt to everything there.

You know that thing in church, where they’d say Give God the charge over your life COMPLETELY? That’s the perfect example of my experience in NYSC orientation camp. We gave complete charge of our lives to the officials😭 I couldn’t do anything out of my will. Activities back to back and because of how much I cried, I mostly wake up with swollen eyes😂 there were days where I woke up with swollen lips (I still don’t understand that swollen lips thing) my friend said my village people were after me (God forbid!!). My hostel was a warehouse and you know how those zinc could get really hot? I was at the top bunk (my whole body was on fire, I couldn’t rest for the one hour break they usually give us after SAED because of the zinc😭). The bathrooms and the toilets were together and It was PIT TOILET. Nahhh!!! I became more grateful to God for the little things I have because in my whole life, I haven’t suffered the way I suffered on camp. It’s funny and it’s not funny too😂😂

To cut the long story short, I started adjusting towards the end of the orientation camp and I also won Miss NYSC👸(celebrate Grace somebody!!😂).

Yoooo it’s also crazy how situations would test your trust in God (lol) and in those situations, you just realize that trusting God is no easy feat. This past month (January) really tested me. Going into the new year, I had expectations for my placement and everything I tried seem to be failing. I was honestly tired but in all of this, trusting God is and will always be the best thing you can do for your life. 

I always like to share something that keeps me going and the scripture below holds a very special place in my heart. It’s also very easy to understand. Enjoy!!!!!!!!

“So now I live with the confidence that there is nothing in the universe with the power to separate us from God’s love. I’m convinced that his love will triumph over death, life’s troubles, fallen angels, or dark rulers in the heavens. There is nothing in our present or future circumstances that can weaken his love. There is no power above us or beneath us—no power that could ever be found in the universe that can distance us from God’s passionate love, which is lavished upon us through our Lord Jesus, the Anointed One!”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭38‬-‭39‬ ‭TPT

PS; if you haven’t followed my blog yet, please hit on the follow button😊